A Little Better

Feeling a little better today. Not a lot. Not back to normal. But a little. I went to a "Mommy & Me" movie at one of our city theatre's today with my friend Carrie and her 3 mth old baby Emma. We saw Marley and Me, which while sad, reminded me that life is a series of ups and downs. Right now I'm in a down. But I will go up again. It's inevitable. It's the cycle of life. It's all good. I looked into some career training that the provincial government is offering right now. I've resisted thus far because I absolutely HATE HATE HATE the thought of the government and some small-minded civil servant deciding my fate and having their nose in every aspect of my personal life. I've heard that it is a difficult program where they make you jump through hoops and go through reams of red tape and pretty much make you beg before you can be "approved" by the almighty civil servant to be worthy of receiving funding. Sounds lovely eh? But I've heard it's gotten better and that they've recently lifted some of the restrictions. We shall see. It just burns my butt that I have worked steadily for the past 20 years, paid into the system, been responsible, and now am made to feel like some lower life form because I am unemployed THROUGH NO FAULT OF MY OWN! I didn't quit. I wasn't fired. I was a good employee. I was never written up. My supervisors liked me. There just wasn't any work, for me or the other 600 people who got laid off. Twist of fate. It doesn't make me a lower class of person. I guess this is probably a lesson from the universe for me to learn to be less judgmental of others myself. I think it is a very valuable lesson to learn. I will have to ponder that for awhile.